Arab Strap The Girl I Loved Before I Fucked Lyrics

I can't even escape you in my sleep when all I need is rest, knowing when I wake up I can't watch you get dressed and pretend I'm sleeping and imagine you with child. A suggestion often made by me and by you always reviled. I wanted to watch your body change and loosen all your clothes. To hold a new-born baby with your eyes and my nose. I suppose that was the first sign that you never really were mine. My twisted spine is aching now this bed's got so much s___e. In direct contrast to my mind which is cluttered with your face. You're the girl I loved before I f___ed and that's so rare. So I'll help you leave your home while you decide if you still care. I really thought we never could end. Or at least I'd always be your good friend. But then I think about what you've done and his tongue pressed against your tongue. Your bodies together in our bed. His c___ in your c___, his c___ in your head. And instead of a new platonic future for you and me I hope you get an abortion or at least an STD. When out with married friends I sat with them on the bus. I watched the way they were and that could never have been us. So the girl I loved before I f___ed you'll always be. But the woman you've grown into is no woman for me.