Shai Hulud Outside the Boundaries of a Friend Lyrics

Avoid the mirror lest I break it
with the stone that serves as my heart.
Accept this pretty package named friend.
Except this, it entails love.
Not so attractive anymore.
Accept this pretty package named friend.
Except this, it entails love, love.
It's never as pretty as it seems
and now it never was at all.

No, it never was.
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All I asked was to be important.
All I wanted was someone to trust.
In my eternal scheme
your act of friendship means nothing.
Friendships are weak and nothing is dear to me.
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Acquaintance stole my confidence,
my humor,
my compassion,
my solace,
left me with myself, and laughed as it walked away.
I refuse to be your tolerance,
I will not be your embarrassment.
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I'm not so attractive any more.
I'm not so attractive any more.
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Take this burden away!
I can only stand in front of a broken mirror for so long.
Staring at the reflection of failed attempts at love
and a black heart -
My heart, once nourished with hope and compassion,
now is black as death.

Hope and compassion,
now is black as death,
is black as death.
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I'm not so attractive any more.
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Trudging forward, broken, devoid of love.
(I am nothing more than scars.)