blood for blood redemption denied Lyrics

You know sometimes when I get up in the morning,
I don't know if I can face another day
because s___'s been so f___ing hard for so f___ing long
and it don't seem like s___s ever going to change.
Sometimes it seems like s___ ain't doing nothing but getting worse.
Sometimes when I look in the mirror,
I look despised at what I see cause pride
strength, all of love and life they don't seem to have alot to do with me.
Feels like something went wrong with me a long time ago,
something inside me way deep down died
and I can't remember when,
I just don't know where the f___ I went wrong...
What's life but a river of tears anyway, huh?

Let me tell you something, rock bottom is a sweet f___ing dream,
a myth made up by a liar who's dispear is a void you can slip into forever.
I've been as low as you can go
and I guess here at the bottom the only place you can go is up,
but everytime I start to get ahead everytime I start to get somewhere
it's seems like someone or something knocks me the f___ back down.
One step forward, two steps back.
I read somewhere that "without hope, man is but an animal"
...I think I've lost hope

I've got nothing left
I await for the angel of death
I've lost to many times to many times to count the pain is so great

I'm so f___ing tired of being f___ed up all the time
but I can't seem to do it any other way,
maybe I'm not as strong as you
but sometimes my f___ed up life it brings me down
when I look around.
My life it didn't make me hard
it just hardened something deep down inside of me.
I think it was my humanity.
I want it back, I want to feel normal again, I wanna feel like a human.
I don't wanna be like this no more,
I'm just looking for some shelter of salvation
or something to believe in or just maybe someone who cared.

I've got nothing left
I await for the angel of death
I've lost to many times to many times to count the pain is so great
I never asked for life
I wish that at birth I had died
I tried to drown this hate
Death will be the cure for all this pain
Every Day
Each f___ing day I pray
I pray to a god that I know does not exist
For a way
Some f___ing way
Some day
For a way to make my way through this world full of s___
Every Day
Each f___ing day I pray
I pray to a god that I know does not exist
For a way
Some f___ing way
Some day
For a way to make my way through this world full of s___
I've got nothing left
I await for the angel of death
I've lost to many times to many times to count the pain is so great
I never asked for life
I wish that at birth I had died
I tried to drown this hate
Death will be the cure for all this pain
Every Day
Each f___ing day I pray
I pray to a god that I know does not exist
For a way
Some f___ing way
Some day
For a way to make my way through this world full of s___
Every Day
Each f___ing day I pray
I pray to a god that I know does not exist
For a way
Some f___ing way
Some day
For a way to make my way through this world full of s___
I've got nothing left
I await for the angel of death
I've lost to many times to many times to count the pain is so great
I never asked for life
I wish that at birth I had died
I tried to drown this hate
Death will be the cure for all this pain
Every Day
Each f___ing day I pray
I pray to a god that I know does not exist
For a way
Some f___ing way
Some day
For a way to make my way through this world full of s___
Every Day
Each f___ing day I pray
I pray to a god that I know does not exist
For a way
Some f___ing way
Some day
For a way to make my way through this world full of s___

There's no where to turn, everyone betrays you.
I can't trust anyone and I'm so f___ing paranoid.
I'm always waiting for the fall, for the let down.
Trust nobody for sure.
I can't remember when a day's gone by
that I haven't thought about taking myself out.
I know I ain't s___ but I know I'll never be s___.
I've got no future but I think I can deal with it, I think I can live,
if I can just look at one person
and see them smile at me and know that they meant it.

Every Day
Each f___ing day I pray
I pray to a god that I know does not exist
For a way
Some f___ing way
Some day
For a way to make my way through this world full of s___
Every Day
Each f___ing day I pray
I pray to a god that I know does not exist
For a way
Some f___ing way
Some day
For a way to make my way through this world full of s___
Every Day
Each f___ing day I pray
I pray to a god that I know does not exist
For a way
Some f___ing way
Some day
For a way to make my way through this world full of s___
Every Day
Each f___ing day I pray
I pray to a god that I know does not exist
For a way
Some f___ing way
Some day
For a way to make my way through this world full of s___