Animosity You Can't Win Lyrics

I never wanted to fall from the top of the world but here I am.
And now I am tired and f___ing ugly
And I hate it but it's all I can be.
Locked up,
f___ed up
But I know I'm not the only one.
I hear that life goes on,
But I guess just not for everyone.
Consumed by bliss that now all I do is miss.
The memories can make me happy but now I'm f___ing p___ed!
Hopeless.
Irrationally searching every single dimension
To find a way to bring me closer to you.

It's night like these when my jaw is being pried off
The sides of my face
And it feels as if somehow I swallowed a f___ing shoe.
I want to tear out my throat
So just for a minute
I might be able to finally breathe.
What has happened to me?
Not a day goes by when I didn't wish
I were still living in September 2005.
I never wanted to live this way or to feel this pain.
And I can't stop asking why.
Now I see that life is just a game.
Sometimes everyday with out you,
Is another day I wish I didn't have to go through.
It still hits me like a brick everyday and it will never go away.
I never wanted you to go away.
I hang my head deep into my chest,
Tormented to realize that for now this is the best.
I want my life back,
I want your life back more than anything.
I never wanted to fall from the top of the world but here I am,
And to some degree I always feel like s___ because your...Gone, forever.
Gone, taken from me.
Gone, f___ f___ f___ f___ f___ f___ f___.
I used to think depression had nothing to do with me.
Now every day of my life I'm faced with despair and misery.
Because some dumb f___ing a__hole made some bad choices,
And he landed on you, and we all pay the price...
Now I know the meaning of being alone.