Blue October Hate Me Lyrics

[Hey Justin, this is your mother.
I was just calling to see
how you were doing;
you sounded really up tight last night,
made me a little nervous.
I just wanna make sure
you are really okay,
and......
see if you were checking in
on your medications.
You know I love ya!
See ya. Bye bye.]

I have to block out thoughts of you,
so I don't lose my head
They crawl in like a c___roach
leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape,
to remind me that I'm alone
Playing movies in my head
that make a p___o feel like home
There's a burning in my pride,
a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you,
Will you never call again?
And will you never say that
you love me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me,
it is I that wanted s___e

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things
I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways,
Yeah, ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally
see whats good for you

I'm sober now for 3 whole months,
it's one accomplishment
that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart
is the one thing I won't touch again
In a sick way I want to thank you
for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself
you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions
on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself
when it was way too hard to take
So I'll drive so f___ing far away
that I'll never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes
in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things
I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways,
Yeah, ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally
see whats good for you

And with a sad heart
I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street
for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry
and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling
"Make it go away"
Just make a smile
Come back and shine
Just like it used to be
And then she whispered
"How could you do this to me?"

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things
I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways,
Yeah, ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see
whats good for you