How to kill near the end Lyrics

I only disappoint you
you only disappoint yrself
I know I cant control you
you know I cant control myself
Im over my head, in and out Im ahead tell me why
what are you waiting for
I dont want to know but Im already there, and again
I dont know myself
I dont want to know but Im already near the end
I have a curse because of you
I have a curse upon myself
Im going to reach and pull you
Im going to make you hate yourself
Im over my head..
(chorus..) I know I know Im not myself Im not myself Im not myself, I know I cant control you
but are you .o.k. when Im alright
(X2)..
Im over my head in and out Im ahead
Im over my head in and out in your head
Im over my head in and out Im ahead
Im over your head in and out Im ahead
I said Im over my head in and out Im a head tell my why
what are you waiting for I dont
to want to know but Im already there
and again I dont know myself
and I dont want to know, but Im already there
tell me why what are you waiting for.?.
I dont want to know but Im already dead. And again, I dont know my self
I dont want to know but Im already (x2.)..
near the end(X7.).
the end