Distance In Embrace If You Lose, Don't Lose The Lesson Lyrics

I'm searching for a new beginning
But I'm just reaching dead ends
I'm stuck in amaze of self-destruction
I really am
And every time I try to get up
You push me back onto the ground
I wonder if you can endure my yearning
I really can't
Now I'm heading straight into nowhere
Or keep running in circles instead
Self-doubt and questions arise slowly
And burst my head
If I decide to follow a new way
I'll find myself just at the same point here again
My eyes are closed
But still I see you again
And I cannot understand
Why you build me up just to tear me down
Smash me into pieces for now I am gone
Pretending that I am not alone...
This is my shelter so I carry on
What have I done? Time to wake up
Now you are gone. Please don't wake me up
Time to wake up. Please don't wake me up
Please wake me up. Time to wake up.