Jamie S. Tear Jerker Lyrics

This song is dedicated to my mom, to my pop, to my family, to my daughter, to the people that I know and love today

I was the product of two people that never got along
I was named after a song they heard the night I was born
I was probly never planned, but you know how it go
Pops was strong and had it all under control
Mom was on and poor and couldn't wait to leave
But she was pregnant now and still a mother to be
And because of that fact she stayed and put up with his s___
And took everything that that motha f___a could dish
Believe it wasn't easy and from what I'm told
Then again I don't remember, I was two years old
I was too young to know or see the tears in her eye
So wondered why everynight she would cry and pray to die
That's some f___ed up s___, but I was so carefree
Like every other child, just livin' a fantasy
Never thought for a second, considered it wasn't real
And if it wasn't, should I change the way that I feel

(Chorus 2x)
Just like a parent, want to shield you from all the pain
No matter how much, inside they're just sufferin'
True sacrifice like the wings of a dove
And it's real because it's all love comin' again

Moms is trippin' and Pops is chillin'
Brain stormin' tryna come up on a million
Or even a thousand, a few hundred, but be right on time,
'cause them bills be pilin' up and we fallin' further behind
And debt collectors bangin' to callin' the phone,
When they come to our house, we would pretend we wasn't home
Standin' in the WIC line, free honey and cheese,
With grotuity baskets from local charities,
It's not fresh at all when you goin' to school,
And can't afford to dress like the cool kids do,
So I'd use text books and last year's shoes
I was destined to never make it to the likes of high school,
Time passed and Pops got sick and felt ill
And everything went downhill
And when them SSI, checks didn't cover the bills,
Not even close
Moms kept the boat afloat as we coast into next year

(Chorus 2x)

I see Pops even less than before,
but he's livin' in the same house behind the bedroom door
It's always closed again, and he's sleepin' no doubt
Open the cage and be a bathroom break and bring him out
Then I get to see him for a second, just to say 'hey'
How ya doin', good to see ya, oh wait, are you okay?(Okay)
For him, the reply "Yeah, Jamie, I'm fine"
And the same night, leave me world without sayin' goodbye
Can you imagine the rage of the pain that I felt
I was too shocked to cry when acceptin' the change delt
I went to school and all the kids in my class
Attended a special mass to acknowledge that he passed
Wanted to cry, but not in front of my peers
And not in front of a preist, so I wiped away tears
It swollowed the whole sorrow like a bit of belief
And prayed to God to let me talk to him everynight when I sleep
(When I sleep)

(Chorus 2x)

True sacrifice like the wings of a dove
And it's real because it's all love comin' again

Just like a parent, want to shield you from all the pain
No matter how much, inside they're just sufferin'
True sacrifice like the wings of a dove
And it's real because it's all love comin' again