Death Before Dishonor Dying Inside Lyrics

I'm out of answers I can't explain this s___
waht did I do to deserve this mess
turmoil finds a way to plague my days
there's no way out of this f___ed up place
I look ahead - maybe I'm just blind
looking back - it f___s up my mind
my dreams are shattered
No words can describe
the way I feel The thoughs I hide
I went to far too far this time
why can't I find
what is my fate I pay no mind
it's a f___ing lie nothing but a lie
can't see beyond - beyond my eyes
this is too much I'm dying inside