Cashis Serenade My Life Lyrics

[Verse 1]
Focusing the opening emotions that I hold within...
Surrounded by my inner demons thinkin I should roll with them...
I don't wanna go to hell, I don't wanna go to jail...
But I wanna kill a man, maybe I should kill myself...
I been sittin contemplatin, suicidal situations...
Now I'm placed in a position, to abide the whole nation...
And I'm spottin *****s hatin, I'm just watchin bein patient...
Prayin for my own existence, some say I'm a mental patient...
Drugs are taking over me, sorrow is patrolling me...
Follow my blind heart, tomorrow run the cold streets...
I been crying for a week, Will is weak, can I speak...
Without somebody judging me, pushing me and shoving me...
Mamma if you love me you wont really let me go...
But I live for a cause that I don't really know...
Am I wrong if I cry, but I can't coz in time...
For the truth in my life, I will be crucified...

[Chorus]
I'm sittin back patient, patient...
I'm ready and waitin, waitin...
For my homicide, serenade my life...
And I can't escape it, escape it...
I'm ready and waitin, waiting...
For my homicide, serenade my life...

I'm sittin back patient, patient...
I'm ready and waitin, waitin...
For my homicide, serenade my life...
And I can't escape it, escape it...
I'm ready and waitin, waiting...
For my homicide, serenade my life...

[Verse 2]
Conversating with my brothers spirit, I hear him saying...
Strangers in the dark lurkin u just gotta feel them waiting...
I aint eatin, I aint sleepin, closets open and I aint breathin... (Not too sure about this line, hard to hear)
Death is running over me, my consience keep on showin me...
Ever since my early teens, Knew this was my destiny...
World gotta feel my pain, I'm no longer questioning...
When, Where Or How I Will, Happen 'fore when I get killed?
Never take my voice away, through records sales is how I live...
View me as the realist *****, poppin pills drinkin liquor...
Sucker to depression makes me turn to my aggression, quicker...
Gotta lotta homies dead, buried all in my head...
Cry inside everytime I ever stop to read my hands...
How could I fear a man? I've never been near a man...
All of yall fraudulent, yall don't like it, kill me then...
All of yall fraudulent, yall don't like it, kill me then...

[Verse 3]
Sunk into a sphere of svelte, Misery being dealt...
My only fear is lyrically not being felt...
I'm much harder, much smarter, more true, f___ YOU...
No matter what the conversation, this is what it comes to...
Imagine staring at your friends, feelin that they don't love you...
Ya ride til the end but they feel, they above you...
I gotta chosen few, name my homies in the song...
If fire arms murkin me when i'm gone...
I tryed to be a better man, baby if you understand...
My love for you is true but I aint really love myself...
See nobody wanna help, better off to end this way...
Talkin to my only friends, weed leaves, hennessey...
Came from a broken home, smoke til the dope is gone...
Listen to the words homie, this aint really just a song...
Came from a broken home, smoke til the dope is gone...
Listen to the words homie, this aint really just a song...