Cashis Thoughts of Suicide Lyrics

Lies in the game, I entertain,
The last lines of the next Kurt Kobain,
Standin at the mirror with a nine at my brain,
Most rap guys wanna die for the fame,
Supposed to die young cause Im in a gang,
And I cant change cause I entertain,
Can sniff three verses, through lines of cane,
You just realized that Im insane,
Im enraged engaged in a war of ways,
They can have me spray shots off the stage,
If I die like Malcolm, will you feel my pain?
Or just cry like a b____ while I lay in my grave
If I die like Pac cause I yearned to bang,
You discredit me, like I never learned a thang,
If I died like Big, would you praise my rhymes,
And give me the spot best of all time
If I died in N Y with the West Coast ride,
And the beef not stopping till hip hop died,
Will a n____ who don't understand that line,
Try and damage my safety in NY?
Will the rap game embrace me, cause I got skill?
For the lies of that man, will I get killed?

Im just getting high, getting high,
Thinking suicide, suicide,

Will the crimes of my youth come back to haunt me?
By the time I shoot, my father want me?
When I tour will my girl, become a w____,
And come back home and cant f___ her raw,
If I walk on stage like f___ the law,
Will the hip hop cops try and kill my squad?
Will the n____s on my team really ride like they say?
Or push me in the shots, 'he gon die anyway'
Is n____s really jealous, cause I got shine?
Is it envy from the fellas, cause I got signed?
Will the whole hood hate, cause I speak my mind,
Will I die for a rhyme before I reach my prime?
If I kill my b____, like Robert Blake,
Do I got enough money, to beat the case?
If I crash out, right before I end the race,
And die for I come out, would you fell my pain?
Im almost to a point, where I cant be saved
My mind state at a place, where it cant be changed
Laws gotta n____ stuck, like he cant be brave,
But I gotta back up, all the s___ I say,
Its lies in the game, I entertain,
Standin in the mirror with a nine at my brain
Most rap guys wanna die for the fame.

Im just getting high, getting high,
Thinking suicide, suicide,

Im just getting high, getting high,
Thinking suicide, suicide.