Light This City No Solace In Sleep Lyrics

I've been so afraid, my love,
I must confess so afraid
I've given in to this sickness of invisibility
I exist now only in a memory
I fear the simplest things like waking from a dream
because I somehow can't find a firm grip on reality
I view myself as an old friend whom I once loved but now who is dead
And I just can't face my own f___ing grave, wilted flowers in hand, mourning something I haven't lost quite yet.